Looking Back and Realizing Now...

You know I never really realized how much our life has totally changed from when Kyle did the tour to Iraq. We were so young, and so in love. Everybody calm down, we are still as in love as we were back then but it is different. We are a family now. My husband is no longer my 21 year old dorky husband, but he is my mature husband, and a wonderful father to our daughter. And for myself... I am not longer a girl that knew what she wanted for herself, but I am a wife and a mother. It is amazing to sit here now alone, with a cold, watching Ni Hao Kailan with our little girl and look back and think where would I have been if I decided to mess with fate and God's plan that night? It was literally one night, we met, we fell in love and knew that he and I were who we wanted to spend the rest of our lives with and start a family, and kick eachother canes out. (Yes a sick humor we have.) I tend to dwell on all this when he is gone, because I do not have the person who sits right next to me holding our Kai Kai, and when I turn and look at him he smiles at me. So bizzare. Yet so surreal at the same time, I feel as numb as I did the day I had to say "See you in Seven Months, I love you with all my heart." I have no doubt this feeling is common all throughout the Battalion on both ends of the world. I am going to use this blog to not only let out everything daily, but also to mark notes on the hurdles we have gotten over with this deployment as well as the growth of our beautiful little girl Kaila Celeste Martin, Our heart and soul.

Good Night to all, Good night my Love. May the Lord continue to shield you, and may He bring you home to us safe and sound.